Sunday, January 29, 2012

Goodbye Our Chewy...

 

It was love at first sight, the moment you came over our house to "check us out" if we were the right home for you. I can't stop thinking about you the way we bonded instantly and the way you bonded instantly with Skye. Our search for another pet is finally over. We found the one. It was you. Imagine our excitement when our adoption application for you got approved...

We will forever be grateful to the AZ RESCUE team for saving you from the kill list. We found you through them and life has never been the same for us. I always think you saved us more than we saved you. Thank you for choosing us.

It seems like 5 years with us was a very short time. I still wanted to bring you and Skye to run around the beach. Been wanting to do that for so long. Like to see you, Skye and Mikka running along the shore freely, with no leash just enjoying the breeze by the sea. So sorry that Apache lake was the closest we can do :( But I guess, God has His reasons for taking you this early and maybe it really is time for you to go because you have fulfilled your life's purpose...

It's been a month now since we lost you. We still can't believe you are gone. There is not a single day that I have not thought of you and what could I have done to prevent you from "leaving" us :( I can't seem to stop crying. How can I possibly let you go?

I regret so many things. I regret having shouted at you when you almost knocked the Christmas tree down a day before you left. I regret that I fell asleep after I let you out in the backyard to go potty so you had to wait for daddy for a bit to let you back in. I regret I wasn't able to say and hug you goodnight the night before you left us as I normally do. I regret not letting you lie down on the newly installed carpets in the bedroom because I didn't want it filled with your hair. So many things Chew... I wish I could turn back the time...

I miss your cuddles and hugs, your silly antics whenever you're playing with your toys, seeing you run around being oh so big and furry, you loving your belly rubs, your kisses, you being so content with me brushing your hair without quirms or anything, you being such a gentle dog who always let me go ahead first when we step in or out of the door, I miss you for not pulling whenever we walk and you made sure you walk right next to me.

I miss the complements I get from a lot of people saying you're such a beautiful dog every single time we walk outside. I miss how you sometimes almost get excited with your treats you almost bite my fingers accidentally but when I say it hurts you'd automatically grab your treat very gently next time. I miss your silly dances whenever you get excited that your food is almost ready. I miss the many times that you just let us lay our heads on your big belly. I miss the times when you make me feel that you trust me with all your heart because you don't let anyone else touch the inside of your sensitive ears except for me whenever I clean them. I miss that you try to beat Skye whenever I come home and ask for you both to give me a hug and you hurriedly come running to me first and tuck your head on my arms. I miss the time whenever I ask Mikka to chew her food by saying "Chew!!!" and you'd come rushing thinking I must have called for you....

We miss you a lot Chewy. I know we've been busy a couple of years since Mikka came to our lives and we were not able to bring you to other places other than the parks close to home. My heart aches with regret that I didn't see the signs that you were trying to say goodbye... how can I miss that?

In the morning when I saw you fighting for your life, did you know that I hurried the best I could to get ready to bring you to your vet just before they open? I hope you heard me say that everything's going to be alright and that I love you and for you to please hang in there. It must have been really scary for you going through that... heck I was scared too! I am so sorry my Cbewy that we were not able to bring you to the vet in time... I feel that I failed you... I should have just stayed next to you until we figure things out.

Thank you though for waiting for me and daddy to wake up that morning at least we were able to cuddle you on your last moments. My guardian angel somehow woke me up really early that day so I was able to check on you, put a big blankie on you and I was able to say that I love you one last time (though I didn't know that it was the last time I'd see you alive). After I got ready a few minutes after trying to call the vet so I can bring you there ASAP... I checked on you again... but you were gone. Daddy and I cried like babies non-stop. We couldn't believe seeing you there so lifeless and it dawned to us, you were gone....  It took me sometime to process it and I can't begin to accept that we were too late to save you. You were not responding when we touched you and we know... we know you were gone!!!! You were still so warm and your fur still feel so soft.. we cried and cried and cried and cried our hearts out. December 28, 2011, 6:20am, you went to Heaven.

Thank you for the 5 years of memories with us. Thank you for choosing us to be your forever family. Thank you for letting us love you and having you in our lives. You were a great dog and nothing could ever replace the memories we all shared with you. We know that you are in a happier place now and we take peace knowing that we did our best to give you the best possible 2nd chance at life.

Thank you that even after you were gone, you still find ways to touch our lives. On your supposed to be 8th birthday, on Jan 9, 2012, we found out that daddy and I are having another baby. Maybe I am thinking this too much but in my heart it felt like you didn't want us to be sad on your birthday so the perfect gift of life was revealed to us on the day we could have wallowed with sadness missing you to bits and pieces. Instead, you made your birthday a joyous day for us reminding us to be more thankful with our blessings and for us to celebrate the gift of life.

We love you so much Chewy and know that you will always be a part of us. You will be in our hearts forever.. especially mine. May you Rest In Peace my dearest puppy. You are loved and forever will be. We will always remember you.. my baching-baching...





 

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